Tag Archives: 2

18: 2, 3, 5,18,18, 24, 25, 6, 2

22 Jun

Cycle day 2.  3rd round of clomid.   5 days of clomid.  18 days until we meet with our RE.  18 cycles so far.  24 years old.  25 years old in 6 months.  2 months until graduate school.

I’m both sad and relieved to have this cycle come to an end.  It was a hopeless cycle.  But I knew that.  I had zero expectations.  I’m not going to lie, part of me was hoping for a miracle, but logically I know the chances of us getting pregnant this month were next to nothing.  It makes me feel better some how.  It makes me feel like I have more control.  I chose to not try to have a baby this month.  There is no baby.  I win.  Or something.  It makes me feel better, don’t judge me.

We’re back to temping and ovulation sticks.  I’m not going to lie, I really liked my alarm not going off at 6:30 every morning…

I feel a little more renewed as we get ready to start our 3rd round of clomid.  I know that this break did me some good.  I feel a little more on top of things.  I’m still deciding how I feel about seeing the RE.  The piles of paperwork his office sent over isn’t helping anything.  Nor are the questions.  Awkward…
I saw my acupuncturist yesterday and she knows and definitely recommends our new RE.  He’s very pro-acupuncture and he’s very passionate about what he does.

I finished Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter this week.  We’re going to see the movie tomorrow.  I actually really enjoyed the book.  I found it both interesting and amusing.  But then I also enjoyed Little Women and Werewolves and Pride and Prejudice and Zombies… 😉  I think it helps that I’ve read all of the originals.  I have to appreciate the way these authors take other works and turn them into supernaturally enhanced versions.  No judging.

Also, there’s a bottle of Pacific Rim Sweet Riesling chilling in my fridge for this afternoon.  Yum.

Advertisements

Clomid Cycle 2: Day 32

23 May

I’ve only made it this far into my cycle once before, and never this far without spotting.  That was pre-clomid. 14 days past ovulation.  Even if we don’t get pregnant this month, I feel like I accomplished something.

Image

I made myself wait until today to test.

Negative.

I called my doctor as instructed and am waiting to be told to go in for a blood test.

I am feeling better today so far.  I can definitely still feel that my cysts are there.  They’re more uncomfortable than anything else. Most of my other symptoms have disappeared as of this morning.  I’m not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing.  I’m having a hard time distinguishing between cyst cramps and actual cramps.  It’s making me a little crazy.

But I’m still here for now.  We’ll see what the doctor says. =/  I’m nervous in a bad way.  I’m anticipating bad news although, obviously, we desperately want good news.  That’s probably pretty normal, right?