Nope

Today, I feel like I’m coming apart at the seams.  Today feels bad.  Today feels hopeless.  

My 3rd lupron injection was 4 weeks ago tomorrow.  I’m almost through my second period since then.  Yep.  2 periods in 4 weeks.  

At our appointment with Dr. B 3 weeks ago, he asked us if we’re sure we can’t afford IVF.  We’re sure.  We can’t.  And now my body won’t act normally.  They say I’m not coming off the lupron well.  They say we have to wait and see.  They say I am a unique case.  They say they’re not sure what’s going to happen.

We saw a oncological hematologist 2 weeks ago.  My thyroid sucks.  My clotting sucks.  My heart sucks.

This sucks.