10 Weeks to Go

10 more weeks on Lupron (Well, 9.5 now, but you know).  Ugh.  The first two weeks seemed to go really fast.  Now, however, it’s really dragging.  However, I was the matron of honor in a friend’s wedding over the weekend, so that was an excellent distraction.

Remember the bridesmaids dresses she picked out for her wedding from this post?  Last August, I really thought I’d be very pregnant by now.  These bridesmaids dresses reflected that.  While I’m definitely not pregnant, this dress did an awesome job of covering up the Lupron pouch I’ve started developing below my belly button.  It made me feel a little more comfortable in my body, and we all looked fantastic! 🙂  It was a gorgeous wedding!

The highs I was feeling are quickly going away.  Now, I feel perpetually irritated.  At everything.  I hear that’s pretty normal though.  In a week and a half, I get injection #2.  I’m both looking forward to it and dreading it.  Looking forward because it means 2 out of 3 injections are done.  Dreading it because that’s when menopause symptoms really start to kick in.  Yuck.

 

11 Weeks to Go!

Week one down!  Last week flew by and I’m hoping that means the next 11 will as well!

This past weekend was weird.

Saturday, after sharing the same car for the past 6 years (a basic two door Toyota Yaris), Jeremy and I bought a second car.  We went round and round with what we wanted to buy.  Originally, we thought a cheap beater would suffice to get one of us to and from work.  However, it was proving really difficult to locate something decent that we could pay cash for. 

After some long discussion, we decided to take out a car loan.  But then came the decision as to what kind of car we wanted.  We could get a small, 4 door sedan that wouldn’t cost us much and would be easy to get a car seat in and out, but the dogs wouldn’t fit.  Or we could get a small SUV that would comfortably fit us, the dogs, and a baby or two.  Ugh.  Haven’t we done this before?  Didn’t we just buy a house with plenty of room for babies?!

We decided to go the responsible and hopeful route and bought a used Honda CRV so that we didn’t have to buy something bigger in a year.  It has so much space… =/  The dogs fit in the trunk which leaves the entire back seat open for… something…

Don’t get me wrong, I love this car.  It feels like such a luxury to have power doors, windows, and cruise control! 🙂  It just reminds me greatly of what we don’t have to put in it.  Much like the house.
Interestingly enough, 7 months ago, after we found out we were pregnant, we discussed trading our car in for something more family friendly.  We decided we could push it out and buy a car in May.  This May.  I didn’t think about that fact until we had already signed all the papers.  Hmm..

Mother’s Day wasn’t as brutal as I thought it was going to be, although it still wasn’t pleasant.  We didn’t see anyone and I think it was just as well.  I was pretty weepy off and on all day.  I had a couple friends wish me “Happy Mother’s Day” and acknowledge our baby and as sad as it was, it was so much of a relief to have our baby mentioned and remembered.  It hurt a little less to know I wasn’t the only one thinking of him or her yesterday.  🙂

I’ve packed my subbing schedule this week, so I’m expecting it to fly by as well.  10 weeks will be here before you know it!

12 Weeks To Go

Not a whole ton going on here currently.  I received my first Lupron injection this past Monday, which means I will be done with it in less than 12 weeks.  It still seems crazy long, but I’m trying to keep nice and busy.

This week, I’ve been working in the garden a lot.  The landscaping was seriously lacking when we moved in last fall, so I’ve been focusing on that and am not planning on having a lovely vegetable garden like I usually do.  BUT, our patio is starting to look pretty beautiful and I’m looking forward to spending lots of time out there this summer.

I also finished finals on Monday.  I got my grades yesterday.  All A’s!!  My first two semesters of graduate school have been the most difficult semesters I’ve ever had.  I began injectable medications and had 3 IUI’s.  I had a miscarriage.  I had a laparoscopy.  I was diagnosed with endometriosis.  But despite all of this, I managed to get all A’s both semesters.  Despite all of this, I still have a 4.0 gpa.  Bragging?  Maybe a little bit.  But I feel so incredibly proud of myself. 🙂

I’m gearing up to start some hardcore twin knitting as well.  A good friend who got pregnant with twins via IVF just found out she’s having 2 girls!  I’m super excited for her and can’t decide what to knit first!  I am loving all of the yarn I picked up today.

Some sad news?  The momma robin from this post hasn’t been to her nest in a week. =(  Two more momma robins are sitting on their nests in our yard, but I’m more than a little sad that this first set is gone.

29: 3 more months

We saw Dr. B today.  We were expecting him to fill us in on what kind of IUI we’re doing next, give us some pretty pictures, and send us on our happy way.

OF COURSE, that didn’t happen.  He has decided there’s a good chance that there may be more endometriosis lurking under the surface and he only gave us a window of 1 to 2 months before it comes back.  His solution?  Lupron.  For 3 months.  He thinks that will give me a 1 to 2 year window of being relatively endometriosis free.  What is lupron?  It’s an injection that shuts your reproductive system down to allow the endometriosis to heal.  It’s a whole lot like menopause.  It’s also used to treat cancer.  

I wanted to start crying right then and there.  While it might be an effective way to treat endometriosis, I’ve heard nothing but bad things about the side effects.  All I can think of is how completely horrible I felt when I was taking Clomid last year.  This will probably be worse.

He made the case that my quality of life will improve significantly if the lupron can successfully eliminate the endometriosis symptoms I’ve been living with.  It’s pretty impossible to argue against that.  It’s true.  I always feel bad, something always hurts, and I’m always just exhausted.  But this drug scares the bejeezus out of me.  Googling it brings up nothing but horror stories.  However, I know women who have taken it and, other than some God awful symptoms, been fine afterwards.

So we told him if our insurance will cover it, we’ll do it.  What else can we do?  I trust Dr. B.  I know that he knows what he’s talking about.  I made him promise me an IUI right away after we’re done with it.  No natural cycle.  This needs to be over.  I’m going to hot flash my way through this summer… again..  fml.

And so, I will be more than halfway to 26 by the time we start trying again and close to halfway to 27 before we have a baby at this point.  Our earliest due date?  One year from now.  I would like to start drinking heavily now….

Also, the birds who live in my yard are very fertile.  A-holes…