Well. We’re back to it again.
Yesterday morning, I woke up with a knot it my stomach. It was my first monitoring appointment in 3 cycles at Dr. B’s. What would we find? Had all of the chiropractic work done anything? I snuggled in bed with the greyhounds for half an hour instead of eating breakfast and fixing my hair. Ponytails at the RE’s office are cool, right?
I met up with a friend who just had her first IVF transfer a week and a half ago. She was getting her first beta done (I’M SO EXCITED!!) and waited while I had a very romantic Valentine’s Day date with the ultrasound probe. We found a 15mm follicle on day 12 with my estrogen at only 83. My uterine lining is a little thin, so I’m now taking baby asprin once a day on top of my other supplements.
I don’t know how I feel about this. To make it easier, I had just started to think we were just going through the fertility treatment rounds before we finally made it to adopting our take home baby. I’ve been really excited about this adoption lately and far less sad about my infertility than usual. Knowing my body is still responding and hasn’t completely shut down my reproductive organs made me stop and reexamine my feelings. When let myself think it really wasn’t an option to have biological kids, I forgot how much I want them. Getting caught up in this “maybe” or “what if” is really making me feel so conflicted. And I know, it doesn’t really matter how I feel. Either we’ll get pregnant within the next few months, or we won’t. If we don’t, we’ll adopt. That’s the plan. Either way, we get a baby. It’s just throwing me for a loop to get back into it and to know if we’re close to a pregnancy or not.
Anywho, I go back on Monday to recheck if this adorable follicle has made enough progress and if my estrogen is where it should be. We’ve agreed to trigger with an ovidrel injection if my Lh levels are too low and everything else looks good. It will still be a later than preferred ovulation (day 16 or 17), but it’s an ovulation. I’m worried they’re going to tell us to cancel the cycle because my estrogen is so low. Crossing my fingers that it rockets up to 150+ by Monday.
And for an “awwww” factor, here’s Snow White being more adorable than my follicle. 😉
Hope everyone has a nice weekend!