I know I’ve been off the radar here for the past 6 weeks. Honestly? I just didn’t know what to say. I can’t get a handle on my emotions half the time, so putting it into writing would have been a hot mess. I had nothing new to post as it took more than 8 weeks for my period to come back post miscarriage.
I was all ready to begin a week of provera when it finally started on its own. The funny thing (and I mean this in a completely not humorous kind of way) is that I was without a period post pregnancy for longer than I was actually pregnant. It was a relief when it started on its own because it felt like my body was telling me that it was ready to try again. My body was actually ready before I was. I still don’t feel ready. But I know if I don’t do this, if I take too much longer, I won’t ever be able to.
I started my birth control on Friday. UNC does 3 to 4 weeks of birth control, which puts our 2nd FET at the beginning of August. About 6 weeks to go…
Today, I went in to have my 2nd saline ultrasound of the year done. They needed to make sure everything was clear post miscarriage and, thank God, it was. But I’d forgotten how much those hurt. While they hurt during for me, I think the 6 hours afterwards are always worse. I curled up on the couch and zoned out all afternoon.
They also did the mock transfer today. This was one of the features of UNC that I really liked. They do a trial transfer just to make sure there are no surprises on the day of. If you remember my first transfer, it was an awful experience. I was so crampy and so stressed out and Dr. T did NOT help things. Today, after she got the speculum in, she was super encouraging and told me just to relax and breathe. She did three trial transfers before I even knew what happened. I didn’t feel a thing. She was so gentle. I’m pretty sure I told her that I love her. And I do. I’ve been in and out of this office a few times since we decided to switch to them in May and each time I see them, call them, or email them, I’m so impressed with the quality of their care. I was carrying so much stress and fear about this transfer and I have to say that today they alleviated 90% of it.
Tomorrow, they’ll call with my FET schedule. After that, I still need to have my embryos shipped. That’s a process that deserves it’s own post entirely…
And outside of infertility this month….
My oldest little brother graduated from high school on June 1. I got to fly up to see it happen. 🙂
We celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary last Thursday. A movie was about all I could manage. I love him.
And we joined my Jeremy’s family in Kentucky this past weekend for the first annual family camping trip. 🙂
Ps. I’ve lost 7 pounds! You probably can’t tell, but I can! 🙂
Jessica
From My Bathtub 