All the Things!

Hi.

5 months ago, I was at a loss as to where our lives were heading.  We had moved into another rental and our infertility was still unresolved.  I didn’t know what I wanted or what to do.  Time was just moving forward.

Since then?

We bought a house!

 

It’s a sweet little 2 bedroom house with a loft and an excellent shed in the back.  I’m painting and tearing things apart faster than Jeremy is comfortable with.  It’s been cathartic.

I got promoted to supervisor at work and I still LOVE my job!  So much fabric and so many wonderful people. 🙂

We’ve decided to seriously explore foster care.

I’m not saying that we’re definitely going to become foster parents, but we’re moving in that direction.  We’re going to take the 10 week course offered by our county.  We’re going to talk to other people who have fostered and/or adopted through our county about the nitty gritty, the bad, and the good.  We’re going to read read read.  And hopefully, by the fall, we’ll be able to make a decision that we feel good about.  I think we’re slowly but surely leaning towards doing it.  The more I think about it, the more I want it.

I really want a baby.  Really.  But I’m not ready to use our last 2 embryos yet.  I’m not ready to go back to that.
Maybe, just maybe, fostering to adopt is the way our family was meant to come together.  Maybe we came to North Carolina not because we could finally afford IVF, but because there’s a child here already who is supposed to be ours.

We’ve spent the 8 months since our last IVF cycle failed being happy with our life.  We’ve gotten settled and secure.  We’re not going anywhere.  It’s time to start exploring our options again.  And I’m so excited to see what this year could bring. 🙂

More soon as we start to traverse life more seriously.

Grants, Foster Care, Come ON, Illinois!

Tomorrow, I go in for another appointment with Dr. B.  I’m expecting the IVF talk.  Yikes.  Although he’s out of town, Jeremy is going to conference call in.  It feels very professional. 😉  I think I’m going to be able to keep from yelling.  Maybe.

Tonight, I started filling out paperwork for an IVF grant.  It’s due in November, and they decide within a couple weeks.  So Dr. B will also get handed three pages that he needs to fill out and get back to me.  He’s going to fill it out.  I’ll call his office daily if I need to.  This lady wants a baby. Like 2 years ago…

I figured this was a good grant to start with.  It’s quick and gives me a good taste of grant writing and if it’s something we want to continue with.  It can’t hurt, so why not.

As for foster care… I called the bureau office two weeks ago, one week ago, and I’ll be calling again tomorrow.  State of Illinois, I thought you needed foster parents!!!!!!!  I think we’ve decided on most of the details, but I’m going to wait until I hear from them to share.  So send good vibes and prayers!

More tomorrow.  When I actually know something useful. =/